Someone,
somewhere said, “Growing old isn’t for sissies!”
At
age 79, Thomas Jefferson lamented to his friend John Adams, “It is at most but the life of a
cabbage, surely not worth a wish. when all our faculties have left, or are
leaving us, one by one, sight, hearing, memory, every avenue of pleasing
sensation is closed, and debility and mal-aise left in their places, when the
friends of our youth are all gone, and a generation is risen around us whom we
know not,” (Monticello, June 1, 1822).
I
am now a “senior citizen.” How did this happen? I never intended to become one. I spent my
life busy about making a living, raising kids, pursuing career goals, trying to
serve God and others and, suddenly, I wake up and I am a “senior citizen.”
This
was never my goal. I never looked down
the corridors of time and wished that someday I could become a senior citizen.
It happened without my knowing. I was
assigned the title without my consent.
Part
of it is my own fault. I have sold out
my pride for a few cents and asked for a “senior coffee,” a “senior menu,” or a
“senior discount.” Do I have no shame?
The
first indicator was a card in the mail from AARP. I did not ask for this. It just came, about the time I turned 50. And now I receive advertisements from the
Neptune Society encouraging me to think about cremation. I don’t want to think
about having my body burned, stuffed in a jar or thrown to the wind. I want to think about living.
Little things remind me I am aging. When I enter my birth year for a plane ticket
on the computer, I have to page down four times to find the year. When I check out at Walmart, the cashier
calls me “Sweetie.” When I go to the
barber the floor is littered with white hair clippings.
We
discipline ourselves in our youth in order to live a longer life. But, when we
live long, we discover that it leads to “old age.” What is this?
I want my youth back. I want to
run and feel the exhilaration of running; to get out of bed without aching, to
fly up the stairs two at a time, and to run down them without a thought and
without a limp. I want to eat whatever I
want without gaining weight.
But,
if we are successful and live long
lives, old age will come.
The
Bible affirms God’s love for us as we age.
“You who have been borne by Me from birth and have been carried from the womb;
even to your old age I will be the same, and even to your graying years I will bear you!
I have done it, and I will carry you; and I will bear you and I will deliver you” (Isaiah 46:3-4)
even to your old age I will be the same, and even to your graying years I will bear you!
I have done it, and I will carry you; and I will bear you and I will deliver you” (Isaiah 46:3-4)
In
every stage of life we pass through troubled times, challenges, setbacks, fears
and anxieties. Pursuing an education, finding a job, getting married, having
children, making ends meet, disappointments, layoffs, injury and disease. Memory
tends to erase the difficulties of the past, but the journey has never been easy.
In
every stage of life, including the last one, God is sufficient and His love
never ends.
Thanks Bill, you are so right! I asked a friend the other day, "How did we get here so fast?!" Also, recently I received a survey regarding associational work and what I saw as needs in the next 10-20 years! I was reminded that most likely I will not be involved in associational work in 10-20 years! Thankfully I do still enjoy and feel blessed to be able to continue at the present time! :)
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your articles very much, even when I don't comment!
May the Lord continue to bless and use you,
Glenn